so my last post was a long time ago, and so much has happened since then. Actually a few days later I ended up in hospital for over a week due to the headache (that I still have over 8 months later).
Long story short, they couldn’t find anything ‘wrong’ with me after 2 CT scans, an MRI, numerous blood tests and most horrifically, a lumbar puncture. The hospital stay was horrifying in so many ways because of the environment — hospital and it’s associated noises, lights and movement are NOT the best place for someone with a migraine to be, especially long term. I quite seriously doubted my sanity at numerous points along the way, the morphine probably wasn’t helping this (and no, the morphine wasn’t helping the pain either!). This stay meant that I missed out on finishing my old job, and the start of my new one. They put me on REALLY strong pain meds (Panadine Forte, Endone and Oxycontin) which only worked some of the time ,and a receptor blocker that they give to Parkinsons sufferers (which takes 6 weeks to work — and even then it still didn’t work).
After months of pain, and no resolution I ended up just having to put on my big girl panties and weaned myself of the pain meds. They weren’t really helping enough to make a difference, and I just know that you shouldn’t be on those kinds of addictive medications for a long time. So since then I have good days and not so good days and try as best as I can to get on with my life living with chronic and debilitating pain. Some days I make it out of bed, others I just physically can’t.
Throughout all of this, so many other things have happened, including losing beloved mother-in-law to cancer, and also losing my job, a job I thought I would be doing for the rest of most of my working life. Both were incredibly stressful occurrences, and now my husband’s family are threatening to make us sell our house so they can have their full inheritance when my MIL’s house is sold. It’s a long story, but 7 years ago we took over her mortgage, and in return, used the equity in her house to buy ours with no mortgage insurance. Even after all the work I did getting her house on the market, her into high level care… twice, and all even thought I’m not technically her daughter and she has 8 OTHER children apart from my husband… yep, families can suck big time.
So now I’m back to getting my health back on track. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been, and I’m using the 4-hour-body to do it. I have time in my day to make good, healthy food, instead of commuting to the cbd and back taking 3 hours a day. My first goal is to lose 15kg by my birthday in July so I can finally go for my skydiving, which I was supposed to do 5 years ago for my 30th!
I’ll also have more time for my blogs!!